Sickly

Did you ever get so sick it made you absolutely miserable? I'm sure you have. However I'm usually never miserable longer then maybe 10 mins. This time sucks man, im just boring! I'm never boring, usually im the hyperactive ADD kid that cant sit still and cracks jokes. The other day I was in class and I wanted to crack jokes sooo bad but my brain didnt have enough energy to think of anything funny to say. I swear this should be illegal for me. I dont even smile! Smiling is my favorite thing to do...like what the flying fuck? Sorry I just had to vent cause I'm not a happy camper..and ususally I'm like the happiest of the happy campers and I'm not even in the happy camp..im like 5 miles down the road at the boot camp doing 50 million push ups saying "fuck my life and I hope one of those happy campers get hit by a truck!!"....but yeah I'm going to go eat some chicken wings,french fries, and a vanilla shake...adios

Where did you go friend?

Curley dark brown hair
With dimples everywhere
The Cutest little smile
That makes your day worth while
Gorgeous and a personality to die for
Had big hopes but dreamed of much more
Intellegent girl of just 15 yrs old
My oh my how time takes hold
Whats this? she gets a taste of the fast life
Only hanging out at night with the lime light
Does things so she cant get her mind right
The Friend
Doesnt have a say at the end
This battle is her own
Bad feelings to the bone
Starts to pace around until I see you home
In The End
It sounds like no big deal and cool
What happens when ur too tired stuck in school?
Dont want to pay attention?
There is no need for an election
You weren't just a girl, you resembled perfection
Dont want to see your light get tainted
A piece of beautiful art work chipping, hand painted
So at 10:42 i sit here and ask myself at the end
Where did you go friend?

~Noloc

Let Me Be The One

Somebody told me you were leavin’.. I didn’t know
Somebody told me you’re unhappy... But it doesn’t show
Somebody told me that you don’t want me no more
So you’re walkin’ out the door
Nobody told me you’ve been cryin’.. Every night
Nobody told me you’d been dyin’.. But didn’t want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I’m settin’ you free

Let me be the one to break it up So you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true But has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time And goodbye


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To my dear sweet jealousy

You broke my heart into a million pieces
In the inside I keep bleeding, but on the outside I’m at peace
As I fumbled to get it together piece by piece
You always find a way to make me trip
So I’m stuck picking them up all over again
With my heart worn on my sleeve I’m an easy target
Sometimes I wish you took away the pieces
So I don’t have to feel the pain by picking them up
One day someone will take the time to help me pick them up
Until that day I will feel pain every moment until she comes

~Noloc

Mature?

I have just recently come back from a four day cruise in Canada. I know what your thinking..."omfg Canada? that's lame." I actually had the best time of my life, and it wasn't so much getting shit faced and dancing with random girls. It was spending time with my family. This past year I have been working so hard so I can be establishing myself in this world. I want to be the provider for myself and who ever lives with me. I help support my mother and myself and that's something a lot of 19 yr olds wouldn't do. Most kids would drop 100 no prob on some jeans, but I'll give her a 100 bucks just because. I don't have to, its that I want to. Taking that vacation put me so much at ease from all that working that I see things a lot clearly now. I know how to have a good time without caring what people think. I also learned to have confidence in myself which is something I have always lacked. Now I'm going to college and holding a steady job. Its funny everyone said I would never mature. But I'm the one who matured the most in such a short time. Yeah it took me awhile, but at least I got my priorities straight now. For awhile I was obsessed with trying to see how many girls I can get. But you know what that don't even matter that much to me. What matters to me is doing everything I need to do for me. So why would i make Canada a factor in this deep conversation about the growing pains of life? Well in Canada I got recognized as being a mature adult. A couple we met on the ship that we where hanging out with said that I had to be the most mature and good natured kid they seen in awhile and that hanging out with me was like hanging out with one of their friends not some 19 yr old kid. It felt good that all that hard work payed off more then just a 700 dollar pay check every 2 weeks. Don't get me wrong I ain't all that mature, probably not even close. The thing is I have MATURED and that's pretty cool. I'm still a flippin goof ball though that wont change :]